Dai Tango no Shi by MOYA

[YukiTen]

Dai Tango no Shi

by MOYA

So go ahead and trample me.

See if I care.

All I ever tried to do was just make you see

That I’d be there.

You didn’t have to feel no pain.

I was there to take it away.

I didn’t want you to go.

I hung on to you,

But all you did was push me away. ‘No.’

Huddled in a puddle of denial,

I tried not to be so distant and senile.

I wanted to make you laugh,

Make you smile.

Too young to know better,

I thought you were a hero.

You tied my shoes.

You didn’t sip on any booze.

But you weren’t.

It was a lie.

You lied.

You pretended I wasn’t real,

Ran away while I cried.

I learned to cope,

Needing you less and less.

I had no hope,

But all this anger and hurt I had to address.

I hated you.

Even after you came back.

Seven years you were erased from my memory.

And you expected me to welcome you with open arms,

But I saw through your manipulative charms.

Bruises,

Pain,

Depression.

You inflicted this.

You were

- are-

the reason I’m so angry.

You left me to rot.

You tore me apart.

And now, here you are,

Asking me to accept you as the incorrigible tyrant you are,

Forcing me to submit.

But no.

I won’t fall into this trap.

You won’t capture me.

No forgiveness from me,

Submission from me,

Love from me,

Appreciation from me.

You will have nothing from me.

You gave me pain.

I can think of no better gift

Than nothing.

I will not have this happen again.

I will not give you my all

So that you can throw it all away

And leave me again.

END